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sometimes i wake up in the morning and hope you're still mine.
i know i'm not perfect and that's what i fear, that you'll find someone who is.
you might find somebody who can do the things i can't.
because you deserve nothing but the best.
i shouldn't love you but i want too, i just can't turn away.
i shouldn't see you but i can't move.

woah.

wow, i haven't posted on here in forever. c;

my weekend.

Friday, i had court.
it went well, im getting off probation in a month and a week.
i'm very excited for that. (:
saterday, i went to the beach with donald & my sister.
sunday, i went to church with my family and donald. it was really good.
i broke down though. /:

i had a good weekend though(:

things happening in Japan;

- a newclear plant has been damaged causing radiation to spread all over Japan, people are getting severely sick.
- what use to be farmland is a bunch of leftovers of houses and cars.
- most of the houses were swept away.
- most families got split up.
- no phones to contact loved ones.
- mother nature out smarted mans systems.
- the tsunami hit california in Santa Cruz crashed boats, and docks.
- the u.s is helping Japan as much as possible.
- there was a massive whirlpool after the quake.
i don't understand why people in Oregan don't take it serious, all they cared about was money.
thousands of people lost there life.
if i could i would help. ):

journal. (;

How was your weekend?

my weekend was quite an excitement. Friday i went to court, and it actually went good. (:
thanks to tim's letter.
and Friday night i went to a show to Of Mice & Men.
i got punched in the face, and i lost my balance and got stepped on. ):
it hurt pretty bad, but i had lots of fun.
on Saterday, i went to another school and saw Alesana.
i didn't get hurt at that show though.
my bestfriend stayed the night on saterday too.
sadly, she's moving in a few weeks. /:
and on Sunday, i sat around with J'Naye all day (x

C R A Z Y  W E E K E N D .

poem ;

you're face doesn't shine as bright anymore.

i remember you, you took the easy way out.

but i'm the one who gave you something to stand for.

i was just another promise that you couldn't keep.

but this is just what you wanted, someone to put you first in there life.

we're running out of time, time isn't on our side.

tell me, was it all worth it?!

CNN student news, notes;

1: the U.S helps Egyptians who have fled from the violence in Lybia.

2: the U.S unemployment situation.

3: the nfl labor negotiations examine the status.

4: the brothers of the opportunity to make history.

5: the nasa spaceship.

journal . ;p

what is something that you've been saving up money for?

For fun i go to shows/concerts. i think i have the most fun there.
so i save up money so i can go to A LOT of them.
There's this tour that i really want to go too, it's called Warped Tour. Up to 50 bands attend it, i
went last year and had lots of fun. the ticket is $40 dollars.
Another thing id like to attend is the band A Day To Remember, their playing at the sport arena. (:
the ticket is like $20 dollars. and there like my second favorite band.
so i have to go. c:
i spend my money on shows...alot. hahaha <3

journal c:

should students that are absent alot get a gps ankle bracelet ?

school is very important, yes.
but i don't think it's nessisary to get a ankle bracelet.
if a kid is absent alot, that means there grades arn't great.
putting an ankle bracelet on them would only make it worst, more stress.
i think they should make them take court ordered classes.
such as therapy, tutoring, or a positivie choices class.
locking them up would also make things worst.

journal ;D

how was your weekend ?


my weekend wasn't very interesting.
on friday, i went downtown with my friend Alex and Robert.
we went to hortan plaza, i went into this huge store called Sam Goody. There were so many
video games, cd's and movies there.
my bestfriend left on friday to her dads, so i was stuck with her boyfriend(x
on saterday, i went shopping with my dad and he bought me new clothes, & then i went home and hung
out with my friend Alex again.
and then on sunday, my bestfriend came back and we hung out at her house, and parkway park.
and i hung out with the guy that i likeee. <3

i wish my weekend was a little better though. /:

journal 2/23/11*

are you on a collage track or a vocational or undecided ? How have you come to your decison? (:

~ I don't honestly think im on the right track at the moment. But i do have plans for the future. I want to be able to go to Ai collage (the art insititute) to be a photographer. And if that doesn't even work out i want to be able to do something with music or a crime scene investigator. but i really want to be a photogragher.
i already have a book of photos ive taken. (:
the only thing stopping me is my grades, credits, and money.
but my dad's work has a program that pays for you to go to the collage of choice, but of course you have to have a good GPA. and i don't. /: but there's always time to make it up and get myself on the right track.
i just hope i get to live my dream.
so you can say i'm halfly on collage track.

notitleneeded.

i can see the pain in his eyes, not wanting to say a word.
only wanting forgiveness. knowing life isnt easy and thinking of the easiest
way to get out. not even knowing if leaving is the right path in the first place.
moving onto things that make him feel alive, hurting his loved ones on the way.
but to him, pain is life. he doesnt know anyhing else.
trying to help, never successed.
i was just another promise that you couldn't keep.
you had to word in the palm of your hands, and you let it slip.


my heart is dead, it's way past beating.

journal 1. (:

What are your plans to do this weekend?

well today (friday) i'm going to a concert at Soma san deigo to see a band called Parkway Drive.
it should be a lot of fun. (: i think Alec said he's going too. The ticket only costed $15 dollars.
and tomarrow, i'm gunna hang out with my old friend Ruben. Were probally going to stay and his house and play COD black ops. (x and sunday, i'm not really sure. whatever happens, happens. (:

when i was younger i saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind.
he broke his own heart, and i watched as he tried to reasemble it.
and my momma swore that she would never let herself forget.
and that was the day that i promised, id never sing of love if it does not exsist.

but darling, you are the only exception.
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